Kids and Decisons

So I feel like I am at a turning point, I don't know why.... Every once and a while I feel like I need to decide everything right now!! I worry, stress, and lose sleep for about a week and then throw my hands up in the air. LOL silly I know, but it's me!

This is how it started!
- We were at Costco and a distant family member saw us and commented on how cute our kids were. Of course I proudly thanked her (haha), but then to my horror she said ' you should be done'. It made my head spin! And then my husband agreed. I bet my face was priceless.

The 'plan' was to have 4 kids. This was before we had any kids lol. Since then we have gone back and forth between 3 and 4. But 2 kids never crossed my mind. But the case for 2 is that they are expensive and we want to be able to let them be in things and try different activities. But... of course it's great to be in a bigger fam, have more friends and learn to sacrifice/get along.

-So as I've said before I am DYING to get my teaching degree. This will probably happen when my kids are bigger, less kids = less waiting. hmmmm....

-Oh and Kendall is DYINGx2 to start his own business. This will probably not happen til I am finished school. So we have a steady income for the first years he starts out. hmmmm....

- Oh and I got the worst ear infection while I was figuring this all out. Right when our Urgent Care closed. And I didn't want to be a drama queen and go to the ER. So I was up most of the night, until my Tylenol 3 kicked in (thank goodness for my mother). The next day my ear drum broke!! Yep infection/blood running down my ear, neck.... GROSS. Now I'm having problems hearing, hopefully when it heals I willbe back to normal. (just when I was gonna start swimming again).

SO THIS IS WHERE I THROW MY HANDS UP!!! It appears life will not bend to my will and I should not try to plan too far in advance.

* On a side note if anyone has advice on tatrum throwing 2 yr olds or 7 month old that wakse up every half hr for the first few hours of the night I am all ears!! (well one ear anyway!! lol. man I'm funny)

Can I call in sick?

These kids are teaming up on me!! I am not getting any sleep. Finally last night I put Kyla down stairs in a play pen at 3 am and let Tayden cry a little. Tonight is gonna be different because after two nights with no sleep I maybe in the basement lol. Anyways I will be back blogging when the bags under my eyes clear.

I've also been drooling over http://sisterscafe.blogspot.com I now have a tons of things to make. So much for loosing any weight.